voiceless....hopeless...

wat is hapening to me....i m nt tat easy to get sad wan...
i alw tell myself to keep strong...kenot cry so easy...i can get tru everything wan...
dun k bout ppl's opinion...dun k bout wat others say...stay happy always...
but y everytime oso like tat...y y y....
every important moment in my life...sure smt will hapen...
for a kid...upsr is important...tat year...my famili economy went all d way down...
2months from exam i stil hav to move from condo back to small apartment...
hav to face those gossip around me...
form3...pmr is important for f3 student rite....dajie divorce....run bk from s'pore...
cry everyday....bring everyone into her sadness....
form5....spm....haha 2jie born baby chloe...n her mother in law dunwan to help her take k d child...baby chloe health hav sum prob...so ned to handle wit care...so my mum hav to take k of her...everyone can't sleep well everynite...scare she cant breath suddenly....do u think i can sleep well tat time...i don't....
form6...stpm....dajie say wana divorce again....(she remarried) same case...try to make everyone sad wit her....with her child tis time....keep crying everyday....
i did nth bt keep find smt to scold me...keep on n repeat....
i understand it is quite hard for her to control her emotion....bt....it is nt me...nt oni me...bt my parents...my other sisters....v din't hav anything to do wit ur marriage...
it is urs....u decide to mary tis man....it is ur responsible....u failed in ur marriage...u can't blame other ppl rite....y u keep wan to blame ppl for tis n tat....its like...i smile...i laugh...i m guity...


tis lil violin-shaped chinese music instrument...i bought it at taiwan...2 yr ago...
i wraped it with tissue paper....keep it nicely in my cupboard's drawer....
sometimes i wil put some water in it...n blow it...it oni works with sum water inside to nurish it....
it oni sold in taiwan...tats d point...n i duno wether i hav d chance to b ter anymore...
u hav time to sit at d living room....watching tv n chating ....u din stop ur daughter from playing my stuf ya....
she broke it....my heart is very pain....i wont blame a child...she is stil young....
bt d point is...u r nt goin to say sowie to me or wat....u scold me....
omg...u scold me?
for a normal person...wat wil u do in tis situation...erm..i think...shud b say sowie...den find a way to stick it back or smt...rite?
but she scold me....non-stop...lik i did smt wrong again....alrite...i was very desperate...i scream at her....to stop her from scolding me....quite efficient ya...lol...
i help u to take k ur child when u r working....sumtime i even wake up middle of d nite to change her diapers...cz i noe u r tired...i noe is hard for u to get back to the field of battle...when u fat lan za i oso tahan oni cz i m ur sis...bt...nt everything u r rite...u r d eldest doesn't means u r alw rite...pls control ur tempe.....pls noe wat is ur prob....u jz making everyone wana stay away from u....divorce is sad i noe....mayb i cant understand ur pain bcz i m nt u....bt pls dun make ppl around u to suffer ok...
i luv u ...n i luv jolie...everyone in tis famili luv u...
bt it doesn't mean tat u r rite in all time....