i felt so sad in a sudden

7pm start car from my hse n went to pick up juu juu for tonite bday celebration with xiao ding…7smt reached juu juu hse and jamed all the way to setapak at mrr2…v were very nervous as v were late…specifically…i was late…

recently got too many unfortunate things happen on me…i tried to face every single thing by my smile…look into the mirror n smile…n telling myself “tis is the face u shud show ppl around u so tat ppl wil not worry about u” …bt i m epic fail today…

when i reached wangsa maju…i realize ter is smt wrong with baby atos…so i pull over and check the car…the water is non-stop dripping under the car…

suspicion 1: the water tank is broken…

the car is ady in boiling mode…baby is having slightly fever now…according to my knowledge…i cnt drive the car anymore…there may b a risk of the car is going to burn…so i sit back n think wat shud i do…and then…i start to feel sad…

i noe i hav to call my dad…bt b4 tat i nid to call someone to discuss wit me wit what shud i do…a person i trust n rely on…the 1st person tat came into my mind…i cnt call him…just cant ^^

so i start to think how to sort off tis mess…bday gal is waiting for me…juu juu still in my car…so i m thinking of whether there is any frens in setapak area that own a car n can help me to fetch them to ampang 1st…i flip tru my contact list…no one…

i just realize…there is no one i can call…

i cnt let juu juu worry about me…i cnt show my helpless face by now…by that time i was quite envy ah Wan…she can cry when she wan to…i cnt…even now after so many tired procedures n i m super emo bt i stil cnt let myself shed a tear…i duno y…i m gud at controlling it when i m alone…bt if i heard a single word of consolation…i wil den cry lik a baby…the useless seen…

called up ah kor…too bad…i m just too bad luck…their whole hse is empty today…everyone were not ter…called up weichun…thanks weichun for giving me useful advise…and very sorry tat i cnt attend the arthur’s day ya…wasted ur ticket…

pls dun scold me…i m not the one who spoilt the car on purpose…i dun wan it to b spoilt as well…i was so scare when i call dad…i cn imagine how angry is him…n mum…i can ady imagine the situation when they reach wangsa…thanks to juu juu tat stay wit me until my parents were ter…

steron picked bday gal n juu juu n headed for the celebration…gals…very sorry tat i cnt join u all…and sorry to xiao ding…pls dun feel guity lar…no ppl wan tis to happen wan…cheers ya!!

by 11 the tow car came…baby atos needed to b towed…dad tried his very best to see wat happen to the car…he did not scolded me (face to face)…i did scolded by him tru phone as he cnt find wer the exact location m i…n mum start to blame me…i gt no idea y is she blaming me…mayb in her heart…a gal shud oni stay in her room n not making any frens n no outing for her…haha…i m speechless…

dear parents…i m ady scared to death…pls just tell me ‘everything is alright…the most important thing is u r safe’…i dun nid scolding…

n now…12smt…finally i reach my home…get myself into pyjamas n ready for bed…hope baby atos is ok…nt serious problem…seeing him being towed was lik looking at my son drove away by an ambulance…gosh…

3 + 1

3 + 1 is not instant coffee…

3 means 3 cuties and 1 means 1 ‘jimui’…

i m very glad tat i always got u guys besides me…v talk…v play…v cheers together ^^

kat kat…ah wan…ah yeong…very happy tat v can maintain our friendship for so many years!!thankyou!!

its very hard to find ppl tat can CARZY together!!!!

i m very glad tat i hav many frens tat can sot sot wit me together..hahaha

my f6 fellows…my utar ji mui…my miff kaki…thankiew!!!

thanks for being a part of my life ^^

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我回来了

今天学会了一些东西。。

第一。。不要轻易相信人。。我很笨。。

第二。。要学会走得快点。。不能慢慢的。。没有人会停下来等你。。只会远远的抛离你。。

第三。。要勇敢些。。自己要勇敢起来。。

我还好好的活着呢..有时只怪自己在不适当的时候聪明了。。

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心虚

我今天不是一点点可是很多一下下的心虚。。

因为我要请假。。在刚刚放完raya假的今天。。我要开口跟老大说我下星期要请假。。还是两天。。

原因？表哥结婚。。

重点？老实说。。我没有跟他很要好。。可是阿姨还蛮疼我的。。而且需要陪娘跟侄女去。。地点有点远。。pangkor。。听说好像下很重本一下。。

为何不推？娘会砍我。。我还想‘老实’的多活几年。。

其实还好公司是这个星期比较忙。。不对。。是特忙。。看着ah man就快被一堆纸搞疯。。自己快被file埋了。。再看看老大眉头皱到可以夹死苍蝇。。

我真的不知如何开口。。

内心挣扎了数万次然后没有勇气踏出房门。。等到勇气酝酿到了！！就被人打断了 T^T

我失败了两次啦。。

第三次。。把做好的东西给老大看。。然后塞parking ticket让他签名。。然后。。

“老大。。我下个星期可以请假吗？两天。。” （我很心虚的问）

“可以啊。。zomok不可以？哈哈” （老大很轻松的回答）

结束了。。。

酱就结束了！！！那我酝酿酱久干嘛？？？？？？

顺带一提。。当我贴着墙壁酝酿勇气时被ah man很不解的望了一望。。笑了两set。。再埋头纸堆。。

只能说。。有些事情就是开不了口啊~~~~~

最近奇怪特。。很久没联络的。。联络上了频频捉我出来。。而频频联络的。。突然人影都不见了。。

心虚篇。。完 ^^

担心

这几天下来就是一直的担心。。

爸的工程。。

妈的健康。。

侄儿的脚。。

三姐的baby。。

现在又多一样了。。chloe的病。。

连自己精神不好都不敢说了。。只希望不生病就好。。

三姐肚子痛了36个小时最后还是自己request下医院才帮她剖腹生女。。羊水破了很久了。。大家都很担心。。医生尽然可以请假。。拜托。。你的patient预产期时你可以酱吗？我和爸很生气的说。。尽然还说什么baby的心跳还很强不用急。。难道要等到不强了时才来催生吗？

看见爸一直很懊悔让姐选政府医院。。一直在那里说‘去gleneagle就好’。。那个。。我家基本上是私人医院supporter。。这次我姐选择这间医院据说很靠近她家婆家和她同事说很好。。据我所知我姐是选私人付款的。。fully payment。。并没有比gleneagle便宜很多。。可是我只能说。。服务真的‘一流’到。。

破水了那么久都不进行催生。。小孩是很危险的。。还好。。姐夫听爸妈的话跟医生要了剖腹。。幸亏baby健康。。不然你们医院真的死定了。。可能你们会说我犀利。。可是我真的不喜欢政府医院。。你刚生完就迫不及待把孩子推回给你照顾。。你就连说话的力气都没有。。怎么照顾啊。。小孩便便了姐不会换。。我去叫你帮忙。。你跟我说等一下。。还要再加一句‘你们不是有婆婆在吗？自己换啊？’我很怀疑你是不是护士。。温馨提醒。。我们fully payment。。还是你们说她的大便你们要看。。现在酱哦。。

好了。。母女健康我不跟你计较。。

我的chloe宝贝侄女。。中virus了。。证实是从这间医院传染到的。。她不停呕吐。。现在还要isolation。。二姐要照顾小cheryl。。必须搬到别的房间住。。不能接近chloe。。她很心疼。。我也是。。爸也是。。妈也是。。

妈本来要留院配三姐。。帮她看顾孩子。。因为‘尽职’的护士不怎么理会。。因为chloe她还要两边奔波。。要帮忙二姐照顾她。。

家里就是酱。。什么事一发生就是一箩。。我真的很担心。。担心多过开心。。

请告诉我没关系。。会好起来的。。谢谢。。