i dont get IT

totally doesn't get what is happening around me...

seems everything is out of my expectation..

thus, even my own reactions are out of my expectation..

thats the weird part...

i used to be simple...

i used to be patience...

i used to be not afraid of failures...

i used to be optimistic and filled with hopes for every single day...

but now i am afraid...

afraid of changes...

afraid of ppl getting upsets...

afraid of failing..

afraid of being...ignored...

thanks god there are still good friends around me...

cheering me up from time to time...

reminding me that i m not alone...

i will try my very best to smile everyday...