An update to myself...

Finally...
I'm graduated...
Overcame the nightmare-liked FYP thesis and presentations...
Fulfilling all the credits hour for this 4 yr course...
Enjoying my uni life at much as I can...
Be able to graduate on time...
Yeap...everything goes smoothly just as what I wished 4 yr ago...
when I told myself I want to enjoy uni life and know many marvelous friends instead of just focusing on academics... (actually I am a lazy person...lol)
Thank you for everything that happened in these 4 yr...no matter it is good or bad...
I am always glad that there are people that I wanted to cheer them up every single day...there are people that I would like to care about and hangout with...thanks for appearing in my life and please do always be by my side...teehee...

While everyone was busy hunting for a job...Like usual...I go the other way round...after a fantastic trip with dearest coursemates to Taiwan...I went on another trip to Krabi with my lovely family members...And of course...secretly undergoes training for diving course...ngek ngek ngek...and manage to pass my open water test...here goes Seen...a newbie diver...thanks dad for this graduation present...I love it...
ps: that's my uncle in the photo nt papa...haha

Here marks the 3 months of my life...a post to myself to remind what I've did...Live with no regrets...

那个蛋挞好像出炉了。。

我常形容我是蛋挞族。。
根据unofficial definition。。由于蛋挞都是新鲜出炉。。要有几新鲜就几新鲜。。
所以换句话说。。
我继承了优秀的大马last minute精神。。
我是一个经典的 eggtart engineering degree student。。。
*新鲜滚热辣chang chang chang*

今天。。我考了4年里的最后一张paper。。
这一张人生中唯一3小时又要人命failling rate 高到招牌掉下来压死3000人的paper。。
两天前我只想快点结束它。。
早死早超生。。
可是在times up 的那一刻。。
从se103的窗口望出去。。我尽然有些不舍。。（不要误会。。绝对没有想break没有repeat过的记录）。。

原来。。
我有很喜欢
这个不壮观的校园。。
这个充满不同个性的同学的地方。。
mid term test 的高度合作。。
final exam 的绝望。。
course registration 的愤怒。。
赶assignment 的凌晨。。
做fyp的pikchik。。
常要担心被clamp tyre 的 parking。。
超慢的 lift。。
4年来一样难吃的cafeteria。。
可爱严厉搞笑会被学生欺负的讲师们。。
超情绪化今天却对我好到有点惊吓程度的FGO左右门神aunty。。

谢谢4年来遇见的所有人。。说得上两句的。。打过招呼的。。thank you!!

Super fast...
Its already the final semester of my university life...
Besides keep failing and failing and redo for my FYP lab...
I've start to think...what I've did for the passed 3.5 years...
Am I truly enjoy my university life?
I'm not sure...
But indeed...
I get to know a bunch of FANTASTICS friends...
Times flies...and it secretly passed by without you noticing...
looking back those old pictures seeing myself changing hairstyles from semester to semester...
damn it...I did changed alot...(gaining weight n start to conquer the environment horizontally)
hahaha...
In this brand new year...I wish...
I will be as happy as I could...
Being as simple as I could...

i dont get IT

totally doesn't get what is happening around me...

seems everything is out of my expectation..

thus, even my own reactions are out of my expectation..

thats the weird part...

i used to be simple...

i used to be patience...

i used to be not afraid of failures...

i used to be optimistic and filled with hopes for every single day...

but now i am afraid...

afraid of changes...

afraid of ppl getting upsets...

afraid of failing..

afraid of being...ignored...

thanks god there are still good friends around me...

cheering me up from time to time...

reminding me that i m not alone...

i will try my very best to smile everyday...

怀疑mama

不收拾就是不知道自己到底度过了怎样的人生。。
就因为mama的‘magic'几度变走了我房间里的东西然后再把所有的附属品堆在我的书桌上假装’堆填区’。。。让我不得已在星期六早上拉着kakak往ikea跑。。
对。。买书架。。（解决堆填问题）
买了后才为运输而烦恼。。忘了我的‘儿子’是kenari不是lorry。。
还好我家的小车都有瞬间变‘宽’的功能。。挤下了这个有点大的箱子。。
（看见papa惊讶的脸我有点沾沾自喜的说）。。
可是把它搬上一楼还真的蛮吃力。。33kg还好有kakak。。

在我研究着manual的时候。。
声称手痛的papa伸出援手帮我把书架lego好。。
从小我就是喜欢在papa身边当他的小帮手（捣蛋）。。搬搬东西。。上上螺丝。。
然后听着他一边唱what a wonderful world一边捶钉子。。是有点不搭。。
书架好了后就是我最怕的部分。。
我有虚心的怀疑是mama特地magic掉我的厨逼我整理那一切埋藏在厨里的东西。。
她的行为很可疑。。
不过我还是收拾了。。
慢慢把堆填区解决。。
然后发现。。原来埋藏了很多很多回忆。。
有从来没被整理的照片。。

<当娘还很瘦我还是冬菇头时>

有中学朋友写给我的字条。。有朋友旅行送的手信（整整一箱全是keychain）。。有fir亲笔签名的专辑。。有很多很多以前不舍得丢弃的东西。。现在看起来却没那么重要了。。扔了。。

在不同的年龄会觉得不同的东西有不同的重要性。。
以前我不会觉得这一张字条有几重要。。因该是乱塞然后忘了丢才留到现在。。可是现在我却会把它收好。。这张要我帮忙交功课的字条太可爱了。。我的中学同学太可爱了。。
呵呵。。

用了4个小时来收拾。。扔的都扔了。。瞬间变整齐漂亮（drawers 里的我死都不开给mama看）。。然后我发现mama真的很了解我。。

Me:我变美那个房间给你看...
mama:不到3天打回原型...一样乱...
me:那你看两天好了 ^^


mama在这整个事件中真的很值得怀疑啦！！！！

cant believe i m year 4...

finally its marching in the last semester of my degree...
i m kind of clumsy and confuse right now...
i nvr thought my uni life will end so soon until now...i suddenly realized...its year 4 now...
no more familiar faces of my dear seniors...some of my friends graduated as their course are only 3 years of duration...and one of the toughest thing that i m encounter now is...
Hooray...FYP...
i started to feel helpless by just looking at the titles offered by the lecturers...
bt at least i chosen something now...everything is fixed...i choose something different from my other coursemates...lab work...and it is all bio and chemistry based...pretty unique huh?

just smt to share...

my campus start to strengthen on the dress code of students (after all these years students of my faculty tends to b free n easy)..ya...we could just appear in the lecture hall will our pyjamas and slippers on it...
and it seems just ALRIGHT...
i m one of the short pants + slippers member...hehehe
this monday when i stepped in the campus i noticed that a BIG banner appear right infront of admin block written there ' dress up for success'...the 1st thing came into my mind is:
I ONLY have 2 or 3 long pants..............................................................................
so....should i start to get more from now?
fyi...gt 1 lecturer suk suk really wan to kick out students frm his class if they wear short pants n slippers...

and..how will u react when u steps into ur room...yeah...ur own room n things start to vanish?

this is what happen to me right now...

yesterday i stepped into my room after class realized that my old pc is missing...mum said she donated it...
today i stepped into my room noticed that my 3feets x 5feets book shelf is missing!!!n everything on the shelf is stacked on my table..i hav to use my lappy by putting in on my lap...i dun even hav 10cm space on the table...this is disaster!!!!and mum said i will only get a new book shelf after sister hse renovation is done on july...I cant imagine what will missing tomorrow...cry~~~~

but of course I successfully protest to my papa about this issue...真理长存...i m so gonna to get rid of this issue by this weekend!!!!roar~~~~

矛盾

我开始矛盾的生活。。
考完试想休息。。却看剧看到半夜3点。。
想丢东西。。却舍不得一切在我生活中曾经扮演重要角色的它们。。
想剪头发。。明明答应了自己说在长到腰前要忍着。。
想要把所有notes丢掉。。却胆小害怕一个两个不小心fail掉要retake。。
想出去走走。。却为了些小事却步。。
想要反抗。。却害怕你会伤心。。害怕你会生气。。
想要看清自己。。却连睁开眼睛的勇气都没有。。
想要不计较你对我说过的一切。。可是我却一点也不心胸宽大。。
想要做的事很多。。想要说的话很多。。却在开口时。。就哭了。。
然后再继续当蜗牛。。
今天我很讨厌懦弱的我。。
我很爱你们所以我可以忍耐。。可是我是你的家人。。不是你的女佣。。
我一直都有当好我的配角。。可是好歹。。
一套戏没有了配角也拍不下去。。不是吗？
在当你的主角时。。别忘了谢谢你的配角。。至少爱爱他。。好么？